emotions. . .

today has been such a mixture of emotions. . .

i felt completely helpless while i talked to a mother with a 7 month old baby with a severe case of hydrocephalus, her head was so much larger than her body. i told a mother who i am sure has been told many times before at other hospitals and clinics that there isn't anything that can be done for her in this country. yet her mother keeps taking her to clinics and hospitals i know with the hope that perhaps someone, someday could help her daughter.

i feel completely overwhelmed when i see our labor and recovery room full of mothers, yet our storage room for our supplies almost empty.

i felt extremely gross when angela threw up all over be as i held her, i am pretty sure she ate too much, so we both took off for the shower!!

i feel completely blessed to hold little angela tonight as i sat in the moonlight with tears coming down my face and she looked up at me and coowed and talked and leaned in to cuddle knowing that something wasn't right. (angela is the little one who had her face bit by a rat a year ago and today is a super chubby little one who loves to laugh.)

i am here. . .

i arrived here in st. louis du nord, haiti this morning. i was supposed to be here last night. . . but 8 hours of sitting in the airport watching everyone else head out led to about 8 of us spending the night in port-au-prince and then heading up to the north coast with first daylight this morning. it really has been a good day of getting to see friends and tomorrow i will be unpacking. it seems like so much work getting packed and then to think about unpacking is even more daunting! thanks so much for your prayers for safe travels.

packing. . .

the process begins. . .

i have started packing for my upcoming trip. i leave on the 13th of january to return to haiti and also will move out of my house and so the idea of packing and having everything ready to go before that date is lots of work!! but one thing at a time and i am getting it done!

i spent a wonderful christmas with my family and am looking foward to an amazing new year. i hope you can say the same in your life. benton and calianna were such a joy to spend time with - i got lots of cuddle and nap time with benton!!