emotions. . .

today has been such a mixture of emotions. . .

i felt completely helpless while i talked to a mother with a 7 month old baby with a severe case of hydrocephalus, her head was so much larger than her body. i told a mother who i am sure has been told many times before at other hospitals and clinics that there isn't anything that can be done for her in this country. yet her mother keeps taking her to clinics and hospitals i know with the hope that perhaps someone, someday could help her daughter.

i feel completely overwhelmed when i see our labor and recovery room full of mothers, yet our storage room for our supplies almost empty.

i felt extremely gross when angela threw up all over be as i held her, i am pretty sure she ate too much, so we both took off for the shower!!

i feel completely blessed to hold little angela tonight as i sat in the moonlight with tears coming down my face and she looked up at me and coowed and talked and leaned in to cuddle knowing that something wasn't right. (angela is the little one who had her face bit by a rat a year ago and today is a super chubby little one who loves to laugh.)